Faith Isn't Faith Until It's All You're Holding Onto♥

I just want to thank everyone for your love, support, friendship and especially your prayers. As you all know that right now is a huge trial that I never thought I would have to go through. I have pretty much worn out my knees in prayer and asking for God's hand in things. When we all go through trials, we tend to always ask God "Why?" Well... all I can say right now is that I am thanking God for what I am going through because of the person that I am becoming. It has opened my eyes to so many things and truths of the gospel. I am not saying that I love what I am going through but I think of it as I am thankful because I KNOW God trusts me enough to go through trials like this. I meet with our Bishop every Sunday because that tends to help me through this. Wow, can I tell you how amazing he is? I have a strong testimony of Bishop's and that they are truly called of God. I feel so strong and good about myself when he tells me constantly how much he admires me and he thinks that God has something in store for me because he has never known a 20 year old who has been through as much as me. I think that is the BEST compliment that I have ever recieved from anyone.

I have a favorite scripture and it tends to be now my "theme" scripture and something that gets me through the days that I read everyday before I start the day. Alma 36:3 "And now, O my son Helaman, behold, thou art in thy youth, and therefore, I beseech of thee that thou wilt hear my words and learn of me; for I do know that whosoever shall put their atrust in God shall be supported in their btrials, and their troubles, and their afflictions, and shall be clifted up at the last day." Try this out, instead of keeping Helaman in there add your personal name for instance "And now, O my daughter Megan..." WOW! I can only imagine how that sounds when it comes from our Father in Heaven. I know that he has told me that throughout my life.

I am thankful for the church in my life. Without it, I don't know who I would be. I am thankful everyday for the opportunity I get to have a sister in Heaven watching over me each and every day. There has not been one day throughout this trial that I have not felt her loving arms around me. I am so glad she is in a place where nothing can harm her. There isn't anywhere else I would rather have her be. She deserves the world and I know that everything happens for a reason and that is why she has already beat me to the other side.

I am also thankful for my loving family. They mean the world to me! I have been blessed to have the Lord put me in such an amazing family to help me through this mortal and ugly world. I truly believe that I will be with them through all eternity and am excited to rejoice with them all together on the other side of the veil. They have been such an inspiration to me and have helped me become the person I am today as well! I wouldn't change the way my life is for all the money in the world. I can sit there and complain about how many trials I have been put through, but I definitely have a strong testimony that the Lord is setting me up for something great. I might not know what that is for awhile, but I do know that He is a man of His word and this will all be worth it in the end :):)

Again, I love you all, each and everyone of you! :) Thanks for being so amazing and inspirational!